On: Wednesday, October 15, 2008

I had a huge post that was essentially a waste of time. I will summarize:

At this point in my life a few things of note have happened. I've been blessed with salvation: a gift of grace given by God, accepted by faith in the Word of God and through the sacrificial action of Jesus Christ my savior. I've been blessed with a wonderful wife. I've been blessed with a beautiful daughter. I've been blessed with a home that keeps us dry and comfortable; I've been blessed with a relatively low mortgage rate. I've been blessed with the ability to pay my bills and provide for my family. I've been blessed with a God filled church who actually preaches the Bible. I have a lot to keep my busy and I have more hobbies than time.

I was seriously thinking of joining the Marine Corp Reserve for a couple of weeks. One day I looked at my 8 month old daughter playing and realized it would break my heart to not see her for 13 weeks, not to mention the time away if deployed. I still feel that need to serve my country and to honor those who served before me, to fulfill my duty. And of course, I still want to shoot a machine gun and throw grenades. The skills taught would be valuable for the rest of my life.

I still want to be a police officer but do not know what God has in store for me. I do not have any skills or aspirations that would lead me in other obvious directions. But what if God does not want me to be a police officer? Only time will tell and I am trying to have patience and seek His will for my life. I pray for wisdom and understanding, along with the strength to do what needs to be done. I don't see myself working here as a career, yet I don't see an exit door available...and I'm not getting any younger.

I'm leaving early this week to go on a canoe trip with my father. This will be the first time we've had a long period of father/son time since I was in high school. I'm really looking forward to it. Floating, fishing, and fun. I'll update with some pics when I get back.

4 comments on "Amended."

Percussivity said...

So the huge post was written as more of a way to get it off of your chest but then you had second thoughts about posting it and it therefore disappeared into the ether of your computer's volotile memory as unsaved bits of data and you posted this other post as a replacement post to the first post that we haven't read since you didn't post it? Or am I off the mark?

The Unabashed Blogger said...

Actually yes and no. To get it off my chest and frankly I just couldn't sit there long enough to try and explain everything properly; it would've taken too long.

Percussivity said...

So how was the float trip??

A Pilgrim's Porridge said...

Brother, you know I am still praying for you about this. Just trust in the Creator of all things to make a way where there is no way, and the Creator of the world will make a way where there is no way.

Be comforted.